How's everyone doing? i'm not 100% fine, but i'm not in a bad condition either hehe...just having a small heart-breaking (again). i heard my heart cracked a bit, but it's fine. I'm trying to face the reality, i'm in a condition where i need an answer for what i have been feeling for these last two years and i finally got it. Not a good answer like what i'm expected but it is much better. Better to know the truth at the beginning rather than being hurt at the end...
This isn't the first time i'm dealing with a heart-broken situation. I think i'm strong enough to face this kind of thing. For these last two years, i'm being confused with my own feeling untill i got the answer today. Although, it's not a direct answer (i got the answer based on what i saw) but it's enough for me to keep holding onto this feeling. It is ended even before i start it.
But, relax..i'm a positive person. I'm not a kind of girl who will cry untill i fall asleep just because of a lovey-dovey thingy anymore (i've experienced that things in the past). My heart definitely hurts and i won't deny it. But i'm not gonna drown into it. I've befriend with pain and i absolutely can deal with pain.
Life's only consists of two things. If there's up there will be down, if there's black there will be white, If there's dark there will be bright and If there's a hello there must be a goodbye...They are something that we can't avoid.
Just take the positive side, since this guy stepped into my life i felt a lot of changes in my life (in a positive way of course). All i wanna say is....I stop and i quit untill here. I let him go...and i let her to take my (possible) position that i haven't got because like what i said before...i get lost even before i start it. Maybe he isn't the one the i've been searching for. Maybe my intuition doesn't work well at this time....Maybe the story doesn't end untill here...Maybe i give up right now, but who knows what will happen in the end right? ;)
There are still plenty of fish in the sea, i just haven't found my favourite fish yet...but, it doesn't mean that i will never find it. Just enjoy the flow because like what Owlcity and Carly Rae Jepsen say "It's always a good time", i always enjoy everything i do whether if it's good or bad. It's just a matter of time whether i will catch a new fish or getting my lost fish back. :)
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