How's everyone doing? i'm not 100% fine, but i'm not in a bad condition either hehe...just having a small heart-breaking (again). i heard my heart cracked a bit, but it's fine. I'm trying to face the reality, i'm in a condition where i need an answer for what i have been feeling for these last two years and i finally got it. Not a good answer like what i'm expected but it is much better. Better to know the truth at the beginning rather than being hurt at the end...
This isn't the first time i'm dealing with a heart-broken situation. I think i'm strong enough to face this kind of thing. For these last two years, i'm being confused with my own feeling untill i got the answer today. Although, it's not a direct answer (i got the answer based on what i saw) but it's enough for me to keep holding onto this feeling. It is ended even before i start it.
Gotcha! please do not get fooled by the title..hehe. The title isn't about me, it is a title of a manhwa (Korean comic) that totally absorbed my attention for these last few days. Udah ada yang pernah baca?. here are some of the covers of the manhwa.
So..i just randomly browsing on google untill i found this website named Goodreads . Ada banyak sekali quotes-quotes bagus dari orang-orang hebat yang berhasil mencatutkan nama mereka dalam sejarah, salah satunya Bob Marley. Diantara semua quotes, quote beliau yang paling panjang dan menurut saya bagus karena gue pribadi gak nyangka kalo seorang Bob Marley punya sisi romantis dan bijaksana (well, i'm not a fan of Bob Marley. But i respect him and he is a legend). So here's the beautiful quote from Mr. Bob Marley (I will translate it to Indonesia):
"Only once in your life, I truly believe, you find someone who can completely turn your world around. You tell them things that you’ve never shared with another soul and they absorb everything you say and actually want to hear more. You share hopes for the future, dreams that will never come true, goals that were never achieved and the many disappointments life has thrown at you. When something wonderful happens, you can’t wait to tell them about it, knowing they will share in your excitement. They are not embarrassed to cry with you when you are hurting or laugh with you when you make a fool of yourself. Never do they hurt your feelings or make you feel like you are not good enough, but rather they build you up and show you the things about yourself that make you special and even beautiful. There is never any pressure, jealousy or competition but only a quiet calmness when they are around. You can be yourself and not worry about what they will think of you because they love you for who you are. The things that seem insignificant to most people such as a note, song or walk become invaluable treasures kept safe in your heart to cherish forever. Memories of your childhood come back and are so clear and vivid it’s like being young again. Colours seem brighter and more brilliant. Laughter seems part of daily life where before it was infrequent or didn’t exist at all. A phone call or two during the day helps to get you through a long day’s work and always brings a smile to your face. In their presence, there’s no need for continuous conversation, but you find you’re quite content in just having them nearby. Things that never interested you before become fascinating because you know they are important to this person who is so special to you. You think of this person on every occasion and in everything you do. Simple things bring them to mind like a pale blue sky, gentle wind or even a storm cloud on the horizon. You open your heart knowing that there’s a chance it may be broken one day and in opening your heart, you experience a love and joy that you never dreamed possible. You find that being vulnerable is the only way to allow your heart to feel true pleasure that’s so real it scares you. You find strength in knowing you have a true friend and possibly a soul mate who will remain loyal to the end. Life seems completely different, exciting and worthwhile. Your only hope and security is in knowing that they are a part of your life."
For some reason, today feels a bit heavy and boring, so as a habit, I went outside the house But I don’t know you, the reflected image of myself But I don’t know you, I look bleak somehow
The landscape always looks the same, it’s not like it’ll look any different today But I don’t know you, what is my weary self living for?
Today is better than yesterday and tomorrow is brighter than today But it has nothing to do with me because this typical day will flow however it wants Today is as boring as yesterday and tomorrow will be as dull as today It’s waiting for me, tomorrow and today
Meeting up with friends for the first time in a while, just talking about life and sighing But I don’t know you, I don’t know what is valuable, every day is the same
Today is better than yesterday and tomorrow is brighter than today But it has nothing to do with me because this typical day will flow however it wants Today is as boring as yesterday and tomorrow will be as dull as today It’s waiting for me, tomorrow and today
For some reason, today feels a bit heavy and boring, so as a habit, I went outside the house But I don’t know you, the reflected image of myself But I don’t know you, I look bleak somehow
The landscape always looks the same, it’s not like it’ll look any different today But I don’t know you, my weary self But I don’t know you, looks bleak somehow
Meeting up with friends for the first time in a while, just talking about life and sighing But I don’t know you, I don’t know what is valuable But I don’t know you, it looks bleak somehow
Today is better than yesterday and tomorrow is brighter than today But it has nothing to do with me because this typical day will flow however it wants Today is as boring as yesterday and tomorrow will be as dull as today It’s waiting for me, tomorrow and today
You’re only getting farther As much as I loved you, you’re the only one It hurts and hurts and it’s foolish but good bye Though I may never see you again, you’re the only one Only one
We awkwardly sit across each other, Making small talk and asking what’s new The moments when the conversation stop for a moment The cold silence freezes us
We will become strangers at this place right now Someone will shed tears and be left alone but I hate seeing you try not to scar me and feel ill at ease So I’ll let you go
My love, good bye now – you’re the only one Even at the moment we break up, you’re the only one It hurts and hurts and it’s foolish but good bye Though I may never see you again, you’re the only one
Only One You’re the only one, Only One
At my sudden works, you seem to be relieved for some reason Where did we go wrong? Did we hope for different places starting from long ago?
The sharpness of the vast difference of our start and end And the pain that stabs my heart – why is it so similar? My overwhelmed heart crumbles emptily in just one moment How can I stand up again?
My love, good bye now – you’re the only one (you’re the only one) Even at the moment we break up, you’re the only one It hurts and hurts and it’s foolish but good bye Though I may never see you again, you’re the only one
When will my head erase you? (I will let you go) One day, two days, one month, if long term then a few years (My baby can’t forget) And someday in your memories, I won’t live in it, you will erase me
